Ayla, that is the most beautiful tribute to Kyla. I am so very sorry for your loss..my heart breaks for you! Losing someone you love so much is one of life’s hardest truth’s—yet one of the greatest gifts. Without experiencing such deep connection and love, we don’t truly live. You have the gift of knowing how much love you both shared. Thinking of you.
Didn’t take much reading of your writing before you had me in tears, did it?
Thank you for sharing this beautiful dedication to your lost friend. I’ve lost a few myself, and though I’ve written to some of them, I’ve never shared it. Perhaps I’ll reconsider that. Thank you ❤️.
This is absolutely beautiful. Kyla was larger than life and this captures her essence so well. She was a lover, a fighter, and like you said, never held back what she was thinking or where you stood with her. If she loved you, she'd do anything for you. Kyla was one of my first friends, west nyack wildcats. I don't know that everyone has ever loved me as much as she did. She was beautiful inside and out. Intimidating, annoying sometimes lol but fierce and strong in everything she did. Confident. Ayla this article brought me right back to those childhood memories at Germonds. When her, Nick, and I went to France for a foreign exchange program. Confirmation. Listening to Bone thugs and Gangsters Paradise. Singing no diggity by blackstreet or listening to Da Brat which was so fitting for her. I will miss her dearly. She came to visit me in Arizona in college when the Giants won the super bowl. She was wearing a sweatshirt, and walked right up to the front of the line and got us into the club lol. We had a great time then spent the whole night awake, laying in bed catching up and reminiscing of old times. We both had our struggles, but she never let me know what she was going thru, she would never want me to see her in that light. I wish I could have helped because I was able to make it out of that life. No matter how much time passed, or we didn't talk, we picked up right where we left off. She never forgot a birthday, I will miss those "Happy Birthday Blue Jeans!" (Her nick name for me) We reconnected a year before she passed. We both had got Lab puppy's and would send each other pics and videos of our fur babies. She was supposed to be at my wedding and said "I hope your wife likes me because I have stalking privileges 😂. I could not believe it when I heard the news, not Kyla, we had just spoken 2 days prior. I didn't know she was struggling. She reconnected me with Nick's brother Matt who I hadn't seen in 8 years. The bond we had with her was special, strong, and will never be broken. Thank you for this. Seems like yesterday we were just kids in C-wing at Felix Festa. I hope all is well with you, even in her passing she brought people together. It gives me comfort knowing she's with Nick and Tim, watching over us. The day after her service I was watching TV and a commercial for Instacart came on...the song...No Diggity, No doubt ❤️ Her way of letting me she's still with us, making her presence known, in true Kyla fashion. I will always keep her close to my heart ❤️ - Billy Blue Jeans
Thank you for sharing this my old friend❤️❤️❤️ Don’t leave out her love of Trina!!
Her memory is our blessing and she will never be forgotten. I’m confident she will send us all a message on 10.08 like, “AHEM? Well? What are you doing to celebrate me?” 😇 Sending you love Billy ✨
Ayala, thank you for being braver than me and expressing and describing Ky in the most accurate way ever. Ironically I also stopped talking to her about three years ago, holidays and birthdays were our main conversation after, and also for the same reason. I was unable to process how this individual who I loved more than anything was no longer her even when sitting across from me. It became even her hugs, which at some other point gave me life and strength, seemed lacking. I have thought about how to respond to this since Gina sent me this amazing piece of literature. I find comfort knowing I was not alone in not only loving kyla but also struggling with loving kyla as an addict. I remember her smell and everytime someone wears the same angel perfume, ironic angel is the name , I think of her. She always called us sisters and she was the closest thing I ever had to one being an only child. I remember her drinking milk at dinner with pasta that Gina made . I remember that checkered swim suit . I even remember when you went to London. She told me Jacka Ayala is going and she's going to be famous. All these memories have overflow my mind and heart for the last couple weeks. It has been a roller-coaster of feelings as i wish I had one more time to tell her I loved her and how her and Cassidy needed her to be here, although that couldn't solve her struggle just reminding her she was loved . I think we all tried in so many various ways to love her throughout her life. She was vibrant. She demanded attention when she entered anywhere, wearing anything, and never apologized for it. Her confidence radiated so fat that anyone near her felt it. Her smile lit up rooms and hearts. She had a unethical way of loving us and I feel greatful to have experienced that love. Ky never looked got anything back she loved, she gave and mostly she never let anyone see her sweat. Having only Ky and Kim on my dad's side has given me an unique opportunity to have a bond with them. Kyla also came in my dreams about 2 days after her passing , and I woke up sweating and crying. She told me she was sorry she said she didn't mean for this and she was sorry we left like this but she was OK and at peace sith grandma. She promised to watch over Cassidy. Just typing this still seems unreal as I think I only told one person these details. I begged her to stay and she said everyone had their time. She loved our grandma. KY always reminded me , in good and bad, how grandma was watching us. This always seemed to comfort me after her passing. Ky would tell me Jack's grandma is watching us . I try and find peace knowing she's up there looking over us. I know thay she is watching all she loved because despite anything KY loved us as much, if not more, as we loved her . Thank you for being brave and loving and for giving me a way to keep Kyla alive in our family. Xoxoox
Ayala, this is beyond heartbreaking and I literally couldn’t stop crying reading it (my best friend Jaclyn, Kyla’s cousin, just shared it). Although I met Kyla only once at her birthday around 2002 or 3 but it was enough for me to always remember her and that presence your writing describes so remarkably. All I could remember thinking back then was “wow, what a perfect life this beautiful girl has.” A life gone much much too soon. There are no words to convey how truly sorry I am for your loss, as I could never imagine losing my own best friend like this.
Hi Luiza. Thank you<333 Jaclyn is blessed to have such a clearly thoughtful and loving best friend in you-- one of life's greatest gifts. Please tell Jaclyn that despite my grief at Ky's funeral, when I saw her (I haven't seen her since high school!) I thought, OMG JACLYN! HOT MOM ALERT!!!!! Just stunning. xoxoxo
This is a beautiful tribute to a beautiful person. She really did create everlasting memories for those who knew her. I am so sorry for the loss you experienced before and after her passing. 💕 Thank you for sharing. May she be in peace with love ❤️
Ayla, I am very sorry for your loss, and the world's loss. We all have so many gifts to share if only we can get through all of the baggage that weighs on us. I know I did not know Kyla, only who she was, but I do know what it means to have a loved one struggling with opiate addiction and/or trying to maintain recovery. Love and light to you and the rest of her family and friends.
Ayla, this is so beautiful and brought me to my knees. I wish I had seen you at the funeral. I'm extremely sad that we missed one another. You're the only person that truly gets the pain I'm feeling of losing your soul mate best friend. I will miss her so very much 💔 If you ever need anything I am here for you, always.
Danielle ♥️♥️♥️♥️ I feel the same, and I hope you feel me squeezing you through the phone. Let’s get together this summer to honor our girl, yeah? A Kyky fan club party? I know she’d want us to keep the soul sisterhood going. She loved you so, so, so deeply. Here for you through thick & think, as she’d say. Love you ✨
Ayla, that is the most beautiful tribute to Kyla. I am so very sorry for your loss..my heart breaks for you! Losing someone you love so much is one of life’s hardest truth’s—yet one of the greatest gifts. Without experiencing such deep connection and love, we don’t truly live. You have the gift of knowing how much love you both shared. Thinking of you.
Janene you speak profound truth! Thank you ♥️ xoxoxo!
So proud of you for being able to feel so deeply, and to share. Love you to the moon & back! Be well, and be kind to yourself!😘
Love you Janene 🌚 ✨ ♥️
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Didn’t take much reading of your writing before you had me in tears, did it?
Thank you for sharing this beautiful dedication to your lost friend. I’ve lost a few myself, and though I’ve written to some of them, I’ve never shared it. Perhaps I’ll reconsider that. Thank you ❤️.
Please reconsider my brother 🥰 it’s my feeling that our angels above love to see us sharing their stories 🥰
Hey Ayala...Thank you for sharing your wonderful friendship with Kyla with us. "So I think we should be friends. "
This is absolutely beautiful. Kyla was larger than life and this captures her essence so well. She was a lover, a fighter, and like you said, never held back what she was thinking or where you stood with her. If she loved you, she'd do anything for you. Kyla was one of my first friends, west nyack wildcats. I don't know that everyone has ever loved me as much as she did. She was beautiful inside and out. Intimidating, annoying sometimes lol but fierce and strong in everything she did. Confident. Ayla this article brought me right back to those childhood memories at Germonds. When her, Nick, and I went to France for a foreign exchange program. Confirmation. Listening to Bone thugs and Gangsters Paradise. Singing no diggity by blackstreet or listening to Da Brat which was so fitting for her. I will miss her dearly. She came to visit me in Arizona in college when the Giants won the super bowl. She was wearing a sweatshirt, and walked right up to the front of the line and got us into the club lol. We had a great time then spent the whole night awake, laying in bed catching up and reminiscing of old times. We both had our struggles, but she never let me know what she was going thru, she would never want me to see her in that light. I wish I could have helped because I was able to make it out of that life. No matter how much time passed, or we didn't talk, we picked up right where we left off. She never forgot a birthday, I will miss those "Happy Birthday Blue Jeans!" (Her nick name for me) We reconnected a year before she passed. We both had got Lab puppy's and would send each other pics and videos of our fur babies. She was supposed to be at my wedding and said "I hope your wife likes me because I have stalking privileges 😂. I could not believe it when I heard the news, not Kyla, we had just spoken 2 days prior. I didn't know she was struggling. She reconnected me with Nick's brother Matt who I hadn't seen in 8 years. The bond we had with her was special, strong, and will never be broken. Thank you for this. Seems like yesterday we were just kids in C-wing at Felix Festa. I hope all is well with you, even in her passing she brought people together. It gives me comfort knowing she's with Nick and Tim, watching over us. The day after her service I was watching TV and a commercial for Instacart came on...the song...No Diggity, No doubt ❤️ Her way of letting me she's still with us, making her presence known, in true Kyla fashion. I will always keep her close to my heart ❤️ - Billy Blue Jeans
Thank you for sharing this my old friend❤️❤️❤️ Don’t leave out her love of Trina!!
Her memory is our blessing and she will never be forgotten. I’m confident she will send us all a message on 10.08 like, “AHEM? Well? What are you doing to celebrate me?” 😇 Sending you love Billy ✨
Ayala, thank you for being braver than me and expressing and describing Ky in the most accurate way ever. Ironically I also stopped talking to her about three years ago, holidays and birthdays were our main conversation after, and also for the same reason. I was unable to process how this individual who I loved more than anything was no longer her even when sitting across from me. It became even her hugs, which at some other point gave me life and strength, seemed lacking. I have thought about how to respond to this since Gina sent me this amazing piece of literature. I find comfort knowing I was not alone in not only loving kyla but also struggling with loving kyla as an addict. I remember her smell and everytime someone wears the same angel perfume, ironic angel is the name , I think of her. She always called us sisters and she was the closest thing I ever had to one being an only child. I remember her drinking milk at dinner with pasta that Gina made . I remember that checkered swim suit . I even remember when you went to London. She told me Jacka Ayala is going and she's going to be famous. All these memories have overflow my mind and heart for the last couple weeks. It has been a roller-coaster of feelings as i wish I had one more time to tell her I loved her and how her and Cassidy needed her to be here, although that couldn't solve her struggle just reminding her she was loved . I think we all tried in so many various ways to love her throughout her life. She was vibrant. She demanded attention when she entered anywhere, wearing anything, and never apologized for it. Her confidence radiated so fat that anyone near her felt it. Her smile lit up rooms and hearts. She had a unethical way of loving us and I feel greatful to have experienced that love. Ky never looked got anything back she loved, she gave and mostly she never let anyone see her sweat. Having only Ky and Kim on my dad's side has given me an unique opportunity to have a bond with them. Kyla also came in my dreams about 2 days after her passing , and I woke up sweating and crying. She told me she was sorry she said she didn't mean for this and she was sorry we left like this but she was OK and at peace sith grandma. She promised to watch over Cassidy. Just typing this still seems unreal as I think I only told one person these details. I begged her to stay and she said everyone had their time. She loved our grandma. KY always reminded me , in good and bad, how grandma was watching us. This always seemed to comfort me after her passing. Ky would tell me Jack's grandma is watching us . I try and find peace knowing she's up there looking over us. I know thay she is watching all she loved because despite anything KY loved us as much, if not more, as we loved her . Thank you for being brave and loving and for giving me a way to keep Kyla alive in our family. Xoxoox
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Ayala, this is beyond heartbreaking and I literally couldn’t stop crying reading it (my best friend Jaclyn, Kyla’s cousin, just shared it). Although I met Kyla only once at her birthday around 2002 or 3 but it was enough for me to always remember her and that presence your writing describes so remarkably. All I could remember thinking back then was “wow, what a perfect life this beautiful girl has.” A life gone much much too soon. There are no words to convey how truly sorry I am for your loss, as I could never imagine losing my own best friend like this.
Hi Luiza. Thank you<333 Jaclyn is blessed to have such a clearly thoughtful and loving best friend in you-- one of life's greatest gifts. Please tell Jaclyn that despite my grief at Ky's funeral, when I saw her (I haven't seen her since high school!) I thought, OMG JACLYN! HOT MOM ALERT!!!!! Just stunning. xoxoxo
This is a beautiful tribute to a beautiful person. She really did create everlasting memories for those who knew her. I am so sorry for the loss you experienced before and after her passing. 💕 Thank you for sharing. May she be in peace with love ❤️
Oh, thank you Alyssa for these kind words <3 You're a real one, then, now, forever, it seems! xoxo
Ayla, I am very sorry for your loss, and the world's loss. We all have so many gifts to share if only we can get through all of the baggage that weighs on us. I know I did not know Kyla, only who she was, but I do know what it means to have a loved one struggling with opiate addiction and/or trying to maintain recovery. Love and light to you and the rest of her family and friends.
Thank you Andrea ♥️ I’m sending love & light right back to you ✨✨✨💕
Ayla, this is so beautiful and brought me to my knees. I wish I had seen you at the funeral. I'm extremely sad that we missed one another. You're the only person that truly gets the pain I'm feeling of losing your soul mate best friend. I will miss her so very much 💔 If you ever need anything I am here for you, always.
Danielle ♥️♥️♥️♥️ I feel the same, and I hope you feel me squeezing you through the phone. Let’s get together this summer to honor our girl, yeah? A Kyky fan club party? I know she’d want us to keep the soul sisterhood going. She loved you so, so, so deeply. Here for you through thick & think, as she’d say. Love you ✨
What a beautiful love story. I’m so sorry for your loss. 💜
Thank you Michael 💕💕💕💕